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(no subject) [Feb. 25th, 2009|11:14 am]
Chelsea!'d Rather Dance
don't let me down.
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middle school boyfriends, and what happens after. [Nov. 29th, 2008|07:14 pm]
Chelsea!'d Rather Dance
i was stalking facebook today, and you know what?
i really wish i remembered having sex with rob church.
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hi/!4 [Jul. 20th, 2008|10:09 am]
Chelsea!'d Rather Dance
well, i didn't have sex thursday night, but i did get to get SOME and then some insane sober sex friday evening.
and its funny, cause i've been with him for like, three days straight and last night was funny, cause i didn't see him cause i was a good girl and stayed home.
and i have an insane text message in spanish that's from a random number, not his but i still think it might be him. who knows. not like his phone is always the most reliable way to reach him.

also got chris beck (from last weekend) 4:30 AM drunk calls/texts, so that's funny, cause i had sorta forgotten about that.
anyways, i think the first might continue, and i would be okay with that... but it also may be dramatic and a lot of work. so i'm just letting things happen as they will.
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(no subject) [Jan. 24th, 2008|05:43 pm]
Chelsea!'d Rather Dance
My dearest.
I've missed you very, very much since that last night we were together.
And I'll hold that night especially in my memories for years to come.
I've been turning it over and over in my mind lately.
I've read your letter through at least four times, and will probably read it more times before I'm through.
I've been sitting here, looking at your picture, and getting more homesick every minute.
I've wanted that picture more than anything else I know of,
except of course, you yourself.

I keep thinking of you darling.
I keep wishing I could be home with you.
I want to leave in the worst possible way so I can come home to see you, but, things don't look so good on that subject.
And this war has spoiled a lot of things for everyone I guess.

I've never been so lonesome in my life as I am right now.

 I'm completely lost with out you darling.
I never realized I could miss any one person so much.
I just hope it won't be too much longer until I am able to be with you again, and live a sane and normal life

-Blink 182.
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(no subject) [Dec. 18th, 2006|09:06 am]
Chelsea!'d Rather Dance
[mood |angryangry]
[music |anna nalick]

i havent written anythning in a long time because things have been so random and awful and good.

however, things are now too rediculous and i just want to die.
i fel like everyone in this household blames all of their problems on me.
loook, i know im fucked up. but honestly, i just want to be left alone and deal with it. you wont be a part of my life in six months, so just deal with me like this until then, and then kick me out of your life with a college tuition.
when i told my mother i thought she was a liar she asked why
and i wanted to tell her its because i feel like everytime she says she loves me, shes lying.
and i know everytime my fathers says it , he is.
I AM NOT DEAD. honestly. i am not in jail, i am not a crack addict, and i havnet killed anyone. what more do you want? i am not hurting anyone except maybe myself, so really, its no concern of yours.
she wants me to come home and finish applications with her, but i dont think she understands that i can not sit in the same room with her.

okay, thats enough. give me my keys, let me drive to school, and leave me out of your life.
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(no subject) [May. 15th, 2006|01:46 pm]
Chelsea!'d Rather Dance
[mood |enragedenraged]

first of all,
you are sick.
why would you read a girls diary anyways? do I know you? do you know me? do i have anything to do with you, or what you do? do my feelings and thoughts affect the way you live, and if they do, you are pathetic. Are you obsessed with my outings? do you care about who i hang out with, the things i do, the boys i kiss, the girls i sing with, the car i drive, the parties i go to?

second of all,
you are sick. why would you send a daughters private feelings to her family, especially when you know they are having trouble as it is. Do you have no heart? do you not think about how things affect other people? journals are for the people who write them. Mine is up here and private, because no one from around here knows i have one, and no one can walk into my room and read it. Journals are not evidence for anything, especially online ones. typos occur often, completely changing the meaning of what you were saying. you have no right to say anything about my journal to anyone. you have no right in the first place to be involved with it.

you have ruined my privacy.

third of all,
i can take care of myself, you stupid whore. mind your own fucking buisness, and get better at your fucking job.
maybe you could pay attention to the kids doing cocaine off toilet seats. or the kids who are drunk all day, every day, failing out of school, and bringing our test grades down. and maybe you could remember how difficult it is to find a junior in high school who has never been to a party, and maybe for comparison, you could read all the other girls diaries.
oh wait.
im sure you already do.
pay attention to the kids who are ruining their lives, and not the kids who are enjoying them.

get a fucking life of your own.
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