||[Dec. 18th, 2006|09:06 am]
Chelsea!'d Rather Dance
i havent written anythning in a long time because things have been so random and awful and good.
however, things are now too rediculous and i just want to die.
i fel like everyone in this household blames all of their problems on me.
loook, i know im fucked up. but honestly, i just want to be left alone and deal with it. you wont be a part of my life in six months, so just deal with me like this until then, and then kick me out of your life with a college tuition.
when i told my mother i thought she was a liar she asked why
and i wanted to tell her its because i feel like everytime she says she loves me, shes lying.
and i know everytime my fathers says it , he is.
I AM NOT DEAD. honestly. i am not in jail, i am not a crack addict, and i havnet killed anyone. what more do you want? i am not hurting anyone except maybe myself, so really, its no concern of yours.
she wants me to come home and finish applications with her, but i dont think she understands that i can not sit in the same room with her.
okay, thats enough. give me my keys, let me drive to school, and leave me out of your life.